lyrics: ayumi hamasaki
music : Kazuhiro Hara
ROMAJI
aitai toki ni aitai tte
samishii toki ni samishii tte
ano koro sunao ni ieteita noni ne
watashi ga anata no koto o shinjirarenaku naru toki
anata mo watashi no koto o shinjirarenaku natteru
watashi ga anata no koto o wakaranaku natteru toki
anata mo watashi no koto o wakaranaku natteru yo ne
tada massugu ni susundeyuku
nando kizutsuitemo
ato dore hodo hitei saretemo
mou modorenai
aitai toki aitai tte sunao ni
ano koro mada ieteta noni ne
omoi o jibun no tsugou igai ga senkyo suru
samishii toki samishii tte sunao ni
namida nagashita sono ato de
omoi o dareka no negai ga shihai suru
anata no tsuyogari no naka ni kakusareteiru itami o
mitsuketa sono shunkan ni hora dakishimetaku natteiru
anata no joudan no naka ni magirekonderu shinjitsu o
kanjita sono shunkan ni hora hanarerarenaku natteru
demo massugu ni susundeyuku
kakera hiroiatsume
kono ryoute ga fusagattemo
akiramenai
ureshii toki ureshii tte mujaki ni
hashaidari dekiru nante
saisho de saigo no jibun nan datte wakatteru
tanoshii toki tanoshii tte mujaki ni
fuzakeatta sono ato de
saisho de saigo no koi da to shirasareru
aitai toki ni aitai tte
samishii toki ni samishii tte
aitai toki aitai tte sunao ni
ano koro mada ieteta noni ne
omoi o jibun no tsugou igai ga senkyo suru
samishii toki samishii tte sunao ni
namida nagashita sono ato de
omoi o dareka no negai ga mata shihai suru
JAPANESE
逢いたい時に 逢いたいって
寂しい時に 寂しいって
あの頃 素直に言えていたのにね
私があなたの事を 信じられなくなる時
あなたも私の事を信じられなくなってる
私があなたの事を わからなくなってる時
あなたも私の事を わからなくなってるよね
ただまっすぐに進んで行く
何度傷ついても
あとどれ程 否定されても
もう戻れない
逢いたい時 逢いたいって素直に
あの頃まだ言えてたのにね
想いを自分の都合以外が占拠する
寂しい時 寂しいって素直に
涙流したその後で
想いを誰かの願いが支配する
あなたの強がりの中に 隠されている痛みを
見つけたその瞬間にほら 抱きしめたくなっている
あなたの冗談の中に 紛れ込んでる真実を
感じたその瞬間にほら 離れられなくなってる
でも真っ直ぐに進んで行く
かけら拾い集め
この両手が 塞がっても
諦めない
嬉しい時 嬉しいって無邪気に
はしゃいだり出来るなんて
最初で最後の自分なんだって解ってる
楽しい時 楽しいって無邪気に
ふざけ合ったその後で
最初で最後の恋だと知らされる
逢いたい時に 逢いたいって
寂しい時に 寂しいって
逢いたい時 逢いたいって素直に
あの頃まだ言えてたのにね
想いを自分の都合以外が占拠する
寂しい時 寂しいって素直に
涙流したその後で
想いを誰かの願いがまた支配する
ENGLISH (Translation)
Saying “I want to see you” when I wanted to see you
Saying “I’m lonely” when I was lonely
I was able to speak so honestly then, but now
The moment I stopped believing in you
You stopped believing in me as well
The moment I stopped being able to understand you
You stopped being able to understand me as well
Just pressing on forward
No matter how many times I’ll get hurt
No matter how many times I’ll get denied
I can’t go back anymore
Saying “I want to see you” when I wanted to see you
I was able to speak so honestly then, but now
Something other than my own convenience takes precedence over my emotions
Saying “I’m lonely” when I was lonely
Right after I cried so honestly
Someone else’s wish takes control of my emotions
The pain hidden within your strength
When I found it, I felt like embracing you
The truth mixed within your jokes
When I felt it, I found that I couldn’t leave you
But I’ll press on forward
Picking up the pieces
Even if my hands become filled up
I won’t give up
Saying “I’m happy” when I was happy
I could innocently have fun because
I knew right from the start that this was my last true self
Saying “I’m having fun” when I was having fun
Right after we joked about it so innocently
I realized right from the start that this was my last true love
Saying “I want to see you” when I wanted to see you
Saying “I’m lonely” when I was lonely
Saying “I want to see you” when I wanted to see you
I was able to speak so honestly then, but now
Something other than my own convenience takes precedence over my emotions
Saying “I’m lonely” when I was lonely
Right after I cried so honestly
Someone else’s wish once again takes control of my emotions
